I'm back..

After a while of involentary absence I'm back writing here. I realized I need to ventilate myself. If not to feel better only to do some writting. I'm not doing this anymore. I'm just creating powerpoint bullet points or running around doing unnecary shit. I need to vent my latest follies and worries. I ran thru this and realized it's been a continous scribbeling about women. I won't stop doing that becuase I don't have much else to write about. Work shit I write elsewhere and I ain't got much shit on my mind. I'm that simpleminded...

So what's new? The problem is nothing. The last love left me dry here in BCN. She went back to were she came from and now I'm back searching. I still think about her but it's a lost cause. I don't really feel like writting about my current situation because it depresses me. But in generall I don't feel very good and am generally tired of the life I'm living. It has a boring emptiness to it that annoys me. I need to do something about that. It seems that all I do is go out partying without purpose. I'm constantly with people but feel constantly alone. I know it's paradoxical but it's the feeling. I'll work harder living the moments that gives me meaning. Doing that I need to learn what these are.

I'll do some self-reflection and see if I can find out what these are and what I can do to live these. So until next time.